Blindness

Oh GOD, I was totally went emotional while lunch break. When I was done with my lunch, I saw a person coming along with a girl ( the girl was leading him by hand and she was one of the cashiers at the counter ). Then suddenly I realized he must be blind. And also since my university is facilitating handicapped people and famous for that, there are many people walk by me most of the time.

This guy, he looks innocent and good looking too. And I felt so sad for him that he couldn't see and I was thinking how on earth he is going to eat??? At the very moment I thought for my self will I be able to have my lunch when my eyes are closed? And when it feels all dark and I do not know where my food on the table. How they look like. How can I get appetite without looking delicious food? And also I though, if he is blind, he cannot use fork and spoon. I was totally lost with hundreds of thoughts and imaginations.

I saw he was asking something from the girl before she left. I pulled out my chair just to see how he is going to eat. He calmly touched the food and took the chips to his side from the tray. He touched the top of them and took one piece and ate it. Oh.. my GOD I do not know why I felt like that but I felt so sad, sorry and it encouraged me to thing that I do not appreciate the site I have. This is not that one of those lectures of something but its my own feelings. I questioned, why GOD he is like that. But this is really invalid in this context. I do not have answers for these. may be he is feeling different to these and about us.

I just came to the lab and wanted to note my feelings today in my blog before I forget about it. It was emotional....

thoughts on unity of all churches...

This week we had a dinner with some other churches around and a prayer week for the unity of the churches. As I heard it started about some hundred years ago and comes annually. In fact it is a good thing to have and after having dinner we had a discussion and Fr. Ed mentioned that after all it doesn't matter for what kind of a Christian you are but what matters is that who do you follow. In the end we should all be followers of Jesus. Hence we all seek one path. That is very true.

I was having some trouble these days and recently my faith and belief have come up with some surface cracks..... I didn't think of Providence and I did not care since I had all I wanted in the past. Even before I could have asked. But when I was directed in some strange paths in my life, I began to hesitate, scared and lonely. And I am afraid that it is a consequence of having lack of Faith in GOD. If you have faith, there is nothing to worry. And I am afraid that it seems like im loosing something.

This happened when I was questioning my faith and feeling bit mis placed in life. and there came some wordings written on the wall of that place saying " Be Still and know that I am GOD ". In fact this is what I was forgetting. And it struck and reminded me that I need to think and pay attention to this...........

Bible Study @Wright State

Yesterday, amidst of heavy snow fall, I managed to go to the first Bible Study of Campus Ministry @Wright State for this quarter. I was wondering why am I going there...??? And of course, I met a friend on my way and he asked where am I going. When I mentioned the reason, it seemed like odd. And in fact odd for most of us. And in this new year, one of my promises to myself was that I will do whatever right that looks to me without being dependent on others. So yesterday, I could have easily gone home and slept or watched tv in the coldest nights I ever had in my life. But I liked going there.

I also like to be with students who are catholics, who are different to others in thinking and doing, who are bold enough to give very little time of their life to GOD. Even going to Sunday masses seems like a big thing for most of us. What I think of that is, if we have 7 x 24 hours per week, isn't it possible to give 1 hour of those hours to GOD? That's my way of thinking and its completely my own idea and it may not be yours.

And yesterday, I met some new friends and met some of my old friends there for the first time in this year. We had some soup and biscuits :). Hmm..... it brings me memories I had back in University of Colombo. Keeping up with the church will help me always to encourage what I believe in. I just thought of putting in my thoughts about yesterday and this is it. :)