Friday, February 18, 2011


It has been almost a year now since I came here (around 9 months) and I should thank GOD for giving me what I have asked for. When I think, I lived over 2 decades in Sri Lanka and it felt home. I haven't stayed outside even when I was going to University and I used to travel everyday which was extremely tiresome when considering the conditions we had in Sri Lanka compared to USA. It is like a dream now. Whereas here everything is standardized and easy. I remember I also traveled everyday for work for over a year and when I reach the place I was half done for the day. I was used to that. I remember when the day is to end, I was thinking when I will be going home, in which train, if it gets late to leave the office how am I going to go home, etc all because I used to travel home everyday having to spend 1 1/2 hours one way in a train or bus. But I did not want to stay out of home even given those circumstances.

I have the changed the location I live now. Living far away from home. I feel everything is changing now. Getting used to conditions here. The city I live in now feels like "local" and Sri Lanka "foreign". Its strange. very strange. It doesn't mean that I do not want to go to Sri Lanka. The way I feel the environment is changing. Sometimes its scary. It all depend on your personality and desires and what do you want to do in your life. But I am not good at taking decisions about life. I hesitate.

Changes like this in life needs some guidance steer life into good directions. Decisions I take will either do good in future or the other way. Anyway it will definitely change the present and future. In which way it yet to find out.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

hard to believe how he works through us


Last month about 7 young people at the campus church began following footsteps of Jesus. as Fr. Ed said, it is hard to believe that these days people start to believe in Jesus where it seems like people lost faith and hope in him. Some are shy to believe and accept him, some have many other work than doing these things, some do not mind and some think they know and do not want to believe, etc. In fact in a country like USA, its very hard to believe that the number is still growing. It never matters how many follow him in numbers but he keeps on adding many closer to him. They may have different reasons to come along this way but in the end GOD has worked through their lives. It somewhat amazes me...

My life has been going through many different paths and when I look back I never understand how, why and what happened. I do not feel lonely when I think he is guiding me. But I do not know whether I am doing alright. But I believe that I am doing alright in him. And I want to....

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Chicken Wings!


Last Monday I had a chance to have a dinner out. It was a chicken wings night! It seemed like that shop has discounts (half price) on Mondays for chicken wings. Even though I had some work and scheduled event, I went on to taste so called delicious chicken wings. And they were tasty..!

While we were enjoying the stuff, there was a discussion on "Is there a GOD really or its just some kind of power source?". One side was debating that there cannot be GOD and its just people's imaginations and they realized some events happened in past related to GOD. The other side counter-argued that it cannot be and there is GOD. One of the dangerous and humorous arguments about this is that one said even Jesus could have been not dead but in a Coma and then rose some time back. Some facts related to magicians that he (person who told) has seen. About GOD, it could be just the power source. If there is GOD why there is Satan? Why cannot he defeat him and let there be only good on this earth or universe. Some wanted everything to be scientifically proven...!

Hmmmm.... I cannot answer all these. But I believe there is THE GOD. Not every other God but almighty God that I believe. For me its all about believing. Going to prove all things scientifically is absolute MADNESS. What do we know after all to prove anything? Do we know everything? When some get to learn and quite educated, they try to prove everything to believe. But for me there are things you cannot prove. As for a simple question when you think alone, can you explain why you are on this earth and what is the purpose of living and what is the meaning of living? When think alone like this there are things that we cannot explain or imagine.

I also have doubts about some things and its natural for humans. But it is very disastrous to think or insult GOD and especially the Holy Spirit and it is written "every other sin may be forgiven but not against the Holy Spirit". My religion is my belief. Its my experience. I experience GOD everyday. I feel like he's with me. And if I don't feel it that means I am not that strong. I want to feel like he is with me. I cannot explain or argue about my experience to be the same for others. I have to experience GOD and I cannot argue about that.!